Quote of the Moment

"Magic comes from what is inside you. It is part of you. You can't weave together a spell you don't believe in." - Jim Butcher

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Days 10, 11, 12, and 13 (and possibly 14)

I will pause a moment while anyone who is consistently reading this blog yells at me for not posting for days.

*flinches at the berating*

I haven't written anything. I haven't been feeling too well. So, what I do when I'm not feeling well? I put all my energy into video games and get sucked into them, and in essence make myself even more sick because I've screwed up my sleeping schedule so bad that, well, it's just bad.

I'm not sure if I'll get anything written today. If I don't, I'd have to write 20k each week to reach 50k. *sigh* If I don't reach that, I'll be seriously disappointed. I received the end of term feedback from my mentor today. She says I've self-motivated. Oh, I so haven't felt self-motivated lately. It's interesting how things can be so different - you feel one way, but people perceive you another way. Maybe if I stop feeling like doo-doo I'll actually feel self-motivated. Someone make me go to bed at a decent time tonight, please (last 3 nights, 5am or 4am - way not a decent time). Then I sleep until noon or 1. So not healthy. What's wrong with me? Lately, lack of self-control. I really need to get myself on a schedule. My husband is right (mind you I don't say this often) - at least when I had a day job I had a set schedule because I was forced to go to work.

New schedule starting Monday. If I screw up, well then I can have people help me think of punishments for myself (the reward thing isn't working, so it's back to the old-fashioned way).

Now, I'm rambling. Be happy if you see an update at the end of the day - that would mean I wrote something. ;)

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