I know, it's been a while since I updated. I haven't had much to update since I continually disappoint myself. Life seems to be getting in the way of my writing more now than when I had a full-time day job. Do tell me, how does that work out? If anyone figures it out, please let me in on the secret.

Well, the computers are fixed and fortified. I re-wrote the stuff I lost. It was pure torture, and one of the scenes I really liked when I first wrote it didn't come out as well. I pushed myself to submit 3 more stories to other markets. That means 6 of my stories are out there, awaiting rejections. Yeah, yeah, I'm being pesimisstic. Screw optimism.

Otherwise, I have a deadline tomorrow, and only have 2k words revised of the 15k I wanted to revise this week by the deadline. As I said, I've been diappointing myself. Maybe if I ban any form of recreation? That would suck. I know, I need to stop using cleaning as an avoidance tactic. I never thought I'd be keeping up on my cleaning for over a month. I hate cleaning. I'd rather clean than revise, and revising is more exhausting than cleaning. Does that tell you anything? I loathe revising, even if it's crucial to writing. Inserting new scenes aren't bad, although I have to be more careful than when I'm writing my shitty rough draft.

*sigh* I'll get over it, and the novel will get revised, and I'll have to repeat the process all over again. Maybe I should do something psychological to get me to like revising. Like the whole association thing. Pair something I love with something I hate, and then I eventually won't hate the one thing anymore. Or I'll start hating the thing I love.

On another topic, I'm thinking of giving my website another big overhaul. It's just so unprofessional right now. I mean, the stories I have posted I really don't intend to ever submit anywhere (and I never want to submit my poems anywhere). On the other hand, it's not so good to have those stories posted because it reflects my worst writing. If I had any publication credits to speak of, I'd say yeah, sure, revamp it and pull off most of the writing (don't worry, I still intend to do the blog - it's more help than hinderance, especially since I can complain to the internet waves, and they don't roll their eyes at me).

Okay, I'll do this. See, I have this comments section here on my blog, but no one comments on anything. If you read this post, and somehow make it up to this point, you are obligated to give your suggestion on what I should do with my website. Just click on the comments link. It doesn't hurt, I swear. And if you need to look at the website, the link to that is off to the right (Alexa Grave's Writing Corner).

I think I've blogged enough to make up for last week, huh? Happy reading and writing all!