Bad...yes. Horrible...yes. Shameful...yes. These words all describe me when it comes to writing lately. My muse is hibernating.
Not to mention that current posts on my WRWA listserve has made me feel a bit ashamed of having a such a personal (complaining lots) blog. It's not professional for a writer. What if a publisher/agent were to see it, what would they think? Honestly, I like utilizing this blog to get out my frustrations. Even if so few people come here, it at least feels like I'm getting all my junk out in the open, instead of just containing it to a private journal. Private journals still keep all the crap locked up in my own head, and that isn't theraputic for me in the least. So, will my chances at having a novel accepted for publication decrease if I continue this blog? I surely hope not. I tend to pride myself in doing things because I want to, and if other people don't like me the way I am, then boo to them. It doesn't seem right to hide a part of myself, and no longer having this "venting" blog would do just that. :(
See, talking about that made me feel a bit better already, especially since I didn't feel it was proper to argue for the personal blog on the WRWA listserve. I'm not one of those people that expect a publisher to see my blog and want to publish it (which was another thing they brought up), so I see no problem with doing this. :) I want my fantasy to be noticed as "something special," not my blog. :p
Well, as mentioned above, the muse is on vacation, and I have no motivation to write, revise, or critique. Although, I really need to critique stories. Heck, my Halloween lights are still up - I don't have motivation for anything. Including this blog, as the timespan between this post and the last shows.
It is my New Year's resolution to become more balanced, encourage the self-motivation, and get way more done in 2005 than in 2004. Okay, I know it's early still for New Year's resolutions, but it's good to get a head start on the long resolution/goal list I plan on making for myself. ;)
Hopefully, I'll have happier things to update on in a week. Happy writing and Merry Christmas (or Blessed Yule)!