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Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Chains of Nect: Obsidian's Obsession - Chapter 12

DISCLAIMER: This is rough draft material. Don't be surprised if you fall into plot holes, trip over inconsistencies, and get hit in the head with direction changes. I've done my best to read through several times before posting, though, to make sure most spelling and grammar errors are corrected. Any constructive comments are welcome for when I revise this novel. Thank you for reading!

All current and previous chapters for Chains of Nect: Obsidian's Obsession can also be found on Wattpad. And for an easy to access list of all chapters that have been posted to Born to Write, please visit the Table of Contents.

A new chapter is planned to be posted to Wattpad every Friday, and that chapter will then be posted on Born to Write on the Wednesday after.

Chapter 11

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Chains of Nect: Obsidian's Obsession

Chapter 12

This woman before Damian was neither the one he had met at the doorstep of the House of Portals, nor the one who had stood before the Council.

Obsidian rubbed one hand back and forth on the cover of the book she grasped, blood leaking from a wound on her arm. The insanity he had only heard of flickered in her eyes.

The gate had her in its grasp, and he also felt its pull. It sucked at him, the magic licking his fingers like a cat. And then he truly saw the cover of the book. "Is that the same rune as above this portal?"

She nodded.

Perhaps it wasn't just insanity, but she held a real way to open the portals.

Damian looked at her, feeling the need to save her from whatever brink she was on, throw her before the Council, and read the book to open the gate all at the same time. He couldn't be sure which were his own emotions and which ones the portal plucked like strings.

But he had to do something, instead of simply standing there like an indecisive idiot.

He stepped toward her.

She raised the book above her head. There, in the lines of her face, the determination etched in that fierce glare, he saw one of the old Obsidians, not just the madness that tickled her soul.

"I'm not going to hurt you," he said.

Sid laughed. "You'll take me to the Council, though. They'll make sure to do the hurting."

"They'd never--."

"Oh, no? You're even more naive than I originally thought."

Her accusation cut him--all the things he thought she was, cruel wasn't one of them. "Please let me see the book." If he got it out of her hands, perhaps the insanity would leave her. Of course, that meant it was possible it would seize him. He'd take the risk.

She lowered the book at least. "Not unless you promise not to take me to the Council. Or mention this to them at all. And the book comes back to me." A wicked little smile lit her face. "If you're a real Guardian, you'll keep your word. What was that precept? Oh, yes. The truth in all things."

That was the precept she had finally remembered out of the endless list?

Damian sighed. "I promise."

"Come get it, then." It sounded more like a taunt than an offer.

He approached cautiously, reminding himself that she was no Guardian, and with all of her secrets the truth meant nothing to her. The closer he got, the thicker the magic became. It choked him--it wasn't just coming from the gate or the book, but from her as well.

One more step.

She raised the book again, swinging down, aiming for his head.

Damian tried to block her and only changed the trajectory. The book clipped him on the shoulder and he staggered back.

Sid came at him again, this time successfully striking his head.

He toppled to the ground, blood trickling past his eye. That thing had sharp corners.

She hovered over him, book poised for another assault. "Don't move. I'm opening this gate, and you're going to lie there and watch."

His head spun. He couldn't stop her if he wanted to. And that was the big question--did he want to? The magic swirling around him seeped into his skin, sneaking in through the wound on his forehead. It would be amazing to actually see a portal opened in his lifetime.

Not like this, though.

Damian fought against the tug of the magic. No, it wouldn't engulf him.

Sid turned away, satisfied he'd stay down since he didn't move or respond.

Just a few beats of rest, then he'd stop her, stop her from making a mistake. No portal should be opened lightly.

What was he thinking? Lightly? The portals shall remain closed to all, lest we allow the demons on the other side to consume us. That's what he should be thinking. Ever since Obsidian entered his life, the precepts in his mind were crumbling to dust.

He swiped at the blood dripping into his left eye, trying to see what Sid was doing.

She drew words in the dirt before the gate with some type of pin. Script. And she murmured some words. Ones he couldn't make out, she spoke so quietly.

The candle under the gate flared, touching the pinnacle, setting the rune ablaze.

If possible, the magic inside the hill grew. No. He didn't have much time. He had to stop her.

Damian crawled along the ground, his head spinning too much to allow him to stand.

She didn't seem to notice, too intent on her ritual. The closed book rested at her feet, his own blood marring one of the corners.

Almost there.

"Turmoil." The word rang from her throat clear and strong, the magic crackling along the ground.

Sparks danced along the gate, and the rune burned. The flame reached toward the center, the empty space between the stone, which flared to life, a swirling fire turning counter-clockwise.

Too late. Damian grabbed Sid's ankle anyway, and pulled her down.

She screamed, falling face first on the ground, covering the book and the runes she'd written in the dirt. And then she rolled to her side, a wildness in her eyes, hands out like claws, teeth barred.

But before she gouged his face with her nails, he grabbed her hands. "Sidi, stop. Please." The magic coursing through her jumped to him, his fingertips tingling, but he rode the wave of power, siphoning some of what held her enthralled, somehow keeping it in check so it wouldn't overtake him as well.

Her mouth softened, and the madness slowly drained from her eyes, replaced by that stubborn streak. "Only my mother calls me Sidi."

"I know. I'm sorry." Though he wanted to smile, not apologize. She was back. Thank the Ancients.

And the realization spread across her features--eyes widening slightly, lips parting. She raised her hand, hovering it over his wound. "No. I'm sorry." She twisted toward the gate, the spiraling inferno behind her. "What have I done?"

"Nothing that can't be undone." He hoped. "Does that book of yours mention how to close a portal?"

She nodded, released his hands, and picked the book up, dusting it off again. "I just want to check one thing quickly."

The pages she flipped to were near the back, covered in script that Damian couldn't read. Trying to make them out felt like he was battering his fists on a steel door.

"I still can't read it." Sid looked back at the gate. "A mystery to be solved another day." And she turned to another page. "Here we go."

Damian sensed a shift in the magic. The power remained heightened around the opened portal, but steady vibrations hummed through the ground under him.

The shift.

He'd completely lost track of time. "How quickly can you close the gate?"

"A couple of minutes."

"That's not soon enough."

"What? Why?" Sid placed her hand to the ground--she must have finally felt it as well. "Run and come back to close the gate after the shift?" The confidence in her question was non-existent.

"We have no clue what will happen if we leave a portal open during a shift. The results could be...destructive." Damian was afraid the House of Portals would be incinerated. But they had to do something before they became part of the hill.

Obsidian grabbed his hand. "There is one thing we can do."

"I'm not going to like this, am I?"

"If we go through the portal, it'll close behind us."

Nope. Didn't like it at all. There were no other options, though.

She stood, tugging him up with her, and she wrapped an arm around his waist when he teetered--the blow to his head still bothered him.

He stared at the swirling fire, wondering how badly it would burn. Not as badly as his failure as a Guardian. Jump through and thwart all that the precepts were meant to protect, or become fertilizer.

Sid pulled at him. She seemed to have no qualms making the decision to pass into another world. One named Turmoil, no less.

The magic of the shift swirled around Damian's feet like fog. Ignoring the dread in his chest, he gave in to Obsidian's coaxing and stepped into the inferno with her.

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Chapter 13

Wednesday, October 07, 2015

Chains of Nect: Obsidian's Obsession - Chapter 11

DISCLAIMER: This is rough draft material. Don't be surprised if you fall into plot holes, trip over inconsistencies, and get hit in the head with direction changes. I've done my best to read through several times before posting, though, to make sure most spelling and grammar errors are corrected. Any constructive comments are welcome for when I revise this novel. Thank you for reading!

All current and previous chapters for Chains of Nect: Obsidian's Obsession can also be found on Wattpad. And for an easy to access list of all chapters that have been posted to Born to Write, please visit the Table of Contents.

A new chapter is planned to be posted to Wattpad every Friday, and that chapter will then be posted on Born to Write on the Wednesday after.

Chapter 10

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Chains of Nect: Obsidian's Obsession

Chapter 11

Sid had seen both Ama and Enid slip off to study rooms on the first floor after dinner. She hoped they'd remain occupied for a while. And she ate in haste, Damian's eyes upon her the whole time.

Forget him. He wasn't about to lurk outside her door, seeing what she had hidden. Nor could he open up and peek inside her head no matter how much he studied her.

"I'm off." Sid stood, tray in hand. "I may take another look at the language book before I head to bed."

It was as if that eyebrow of his had a brain all its own--it crept up near his hairline. "Good luck." His words sounded dead, fake.

She didn't need any luck because she had already figured it out. And he knew it, but he hadn't confronted her about it. No clue why. Perhaps he wanted proof, to catch her in a lie. She imagined his smug satisfaction if he did.

Nope. Not going to give him the pleasure. "See you in the morning."

Sid took care of her tray and sped back to her room, then dove straight into prying her precious book out from under her dresser. It took some time, and she had to open a window because of the smell of the turpentine. Hopefully the other women wouldn't notice the stench--it should all clear out before they got back.

Finally, though, she held the box in her hands.

Instead of triggering the mechanism right away, she rubbed her hand along the metal. A strange fear ran up her spine. What if the book wasn't what she expected? What if it was something silly like recipes? Or what if it was what she thought? What then?

No way to know until she read it.

She worked her fingers, popped the mechanism, and pulled the book out. Then dropped the box in a clatter because of the rune on the book's cover.

It had changed.

It no longer echoed that blurry rune in her mind from the gate back home. No.

The rune said Turmoil.

Clearly this book had more magic than just the ability to preserve itself. It shifted with a person's focus. She was sure if she went down to the courtyard right now and studied, wait, no, touched, another portal, then held the book, the word would change to reflect that gate.

Amazing.

And convenient. Only one book needed to still exist to be able to open all of the portals.

Again, she hadn't confirmed that it contained such knowledge, but there was less doubt now.

Sid opened it gingerly, hands shaking. The first sections seemed to detail the world itself. At least the landscape, terrain, geography, as well as the types of animals that populated it. She skimmed this, watching for mention of other people, but there was none. Odd.

Finally, though, she found something she sought. Clear instructions on how to open the gate. And it was obvious that these directions would only open Turmoil. Kind of a give away when the final word needing to be spoken was that of the rune etched in the gate. But of course since this magic was a written kind, speech wasn't enough--oh, no. And it all had to be perfect. One mistake and the gate would remain closed to her.

But these instructions were only halfway through the book. She paged past them, and though the runes in the next section looked exactly the same, she couldn't read them. It was as if a stone wall fell down in her mind, blocking her from comprehending them.

She puzzled over them, trying to focus as she had when she learned before, but that wall didn't budge. It even felt like it grew closer, like a living entity refusing her entry. Strange.

Perhaps this was the section about the inhabitants and history of Turmoil. Not that there was even a hint what the words meant. This was worse than when she first found the book. Not only was she clueless, but even trying felt hopeless.

And she had no one to ask. Unless she confessed everything to Damian. If she did so, he'd surely drag her in front of the Council this time.

Sid stared at the obstinate words. Perhaps she'd be able to read them once she opened the gate. Yes, that had to be it.

And she knew how to do it. That's all she'd do. Just open it, see if she could then read the rest of the book, and close the gate before anyone even noticed.

Only for a moment did she consider herself mad, but she felt such a deep need, a compulsion, to follow the steps listed in the book, that she settled herself by insisting that it was instinct that pushed her, not madness.

It's not like she needed many materials. She could do this now, tonight, no need to wait.

She dredged her mind to recall what Damian had pointed out during the tour on her first day. Supplies, she had to find a supply room.

Sid rummaged through her chest and pulled out a small knife and a thick, gray cloak. She changed into a regular pair of clothes, shirt and breeches so a skirt wouldn't get in the way, and wrapped the cloak around her. The book could be hidden nicely in its folds, and she stowed the knife in one of the inner pockets.

Then she slipped out of the room, careful to avoid anyone in the halls, ducking into shadows and doorways when needed. At one point she saw both Ama and Enid pass--good thing she was no longer paging through the book in their room.

It took some time to get downstairs. Thankfully the main level wasn't too crowded, since by now most people were either in their rooms or shut away studying.

She recalled most of the supplies were kept near the kitchens, so she headed that way. Yes, she lucked out on the first large room she tried. Oil lamps, candles, matches--perfect.

Sid pawed through the candles. The instructions were specific--it had to be a certain color. Most of what she found was simply white or yellow. Normal, boring candle colors. What need did they have for an array of colors anyhow? Ancients forbid the Guardians had any aesthetic sense.

Finally, though, at the bottom of a box, she found exactly what she was looking for. A brilliant red pillar. She snatched some matches, tucked her finds into her cloak pockets, and returned to the hall.

A scrape echoed from around the corner. Sid ducked into a doorway, feeling exposed, not in the shadows enough. Her heart pounded with the thought of being caught, however it ached more at the thought of the portal remaining closed for any longer. She waited several beats, but no one appeared and the sound didn't repeat itself.

Now or never. She continued her way to the door labeled Crossroads, and when she stepped through it, she again felt the same tingling she had on the first day. This time though, she shuddered from the force. She squeezed the book under her cloak, as if it were trying to escape.

The night was thick with magic, and she only brought more with her.

What time was it? She'd lost track, and she hoped she wouldn't be caught in the shift. No, it couldn't be that late.

Sid wove through all of the gates, not caring what they said or where they led. Only one mattered tonight. As she walked, though, she watched for a loose branch. By the time she'd reached the misshapen hill, she still hadn't found one. Damn these Guardians for keeping everything so proper.

She needed something to trace in the dirt with, and she couldn't go back to the main building now.

Ah, of course. Sid plucked the two large pins out of her hair that Ama had insisted she keep. Her hair tumbled down her back. One of these would work, since she couldn't use the knife--the book insisted that which spilled blood couldn't work the magic needed in the words. And her hair felt better down, anyhow. Right. More powerful. Free.

If Sid was successful, she'd free more than just some strands of hair.

She ducked through the opening in the hill, and the magic of Turmoil hit her. It slithered along her skin, sucking at her pores, made its way down her throat and spread to her fingers and toes, almost choking her with its desperation.

Yes, yes. Soon.

Sid pulled out the candle and the knife. She held her breath as she nicked her arm with the blade, blood welling from the cut. And with that blood, she slowly etched the rune into the candle, just right, every stroke in the proper order, or the magic would disintegrate.

Then she placed the candle under the arch in the center. Even though the gate was crooked and the ground not level, there was still a perfect spot for it, an indentation that would have been mistaken for a simple dimple in the earth unless you knew what you were looking for.

She took out a match and struck it, hands trembling so fiercely from nerves and the power running rampant around her and in her, she could barely hold it to the wick long enough to light it. But she finally did, the flame flickering and climbing, as if reaching up toward the etched rune of the portal.

So beautiful.

"Ouch." She dropped the match which had burned to her fingertips. She should really pay better attention. Every detail counted.

Speaking of details. Sid pulled out the book and paged to the directions, to re-read them, just to be sure.

"What are you doing?" Damian's voice sliced through the magic swirling in a cloud around her.

She dropped the book and spun to find him standing right behind her. How had she not heard him? Bad. Not being careful enough. Something had surely taken hold of her.

He stepped closer and pointed to the book. "What's that?"

No way out of this now. He'd take her to the Council no matter what. But she had to open Turmoil--it needed her.

Sid picked up the book and dusted it off, thankful no pages had come loose. "A way to open the portals."

And she was prepared to knock Damian over the head with it when he tried to drag her away.

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Chapter 12

Wednesday, September 09, 2015

Chains of Nect: Obsidian's Obsession - Chapter 7

DISCLAIMER: This is rough draft material. Don't be surprised if you fall into plot holes, trip over inconsistencies, and get hit in the head with direction changes. I've done my best to read through several times before posting, though, to make sure most spelling and grammar errors are corrected. Any constructive comments are welcome for when I revise this novel. Thank you for reading!

All current and previous chapters for Chains of Nect: Obsidian's Obsession can also be found on Wattpad. And for an easy to access list of all chapters that have been posted to Born to Write, please visit the Table of Contents.

A new chapter is planned to be posted to Wattpad every Friday, and that chapter will then be posted on Born to Write on the Wednesday after.

Chapter 6

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Chains of Nect: Obsidian's Obsession

Chapter 7

Sid couldn't stop shaking, her hands grasping Damian's shirt so tightly that they hurt.

First the reaction she had gotten from the gate, then the shock of Damian finding her, followed by him dragging her away. Finally the burst of magic that had rippled through the courtyard.

Too much. All too much at once. She was lucky she was only trembling and not throwing up.

After all that, she still heard the gate call to her, feeding its need into her.

She lifted her head and looked back at the hill. It no longer stood in the same spot, though--it had moved closer. If she would have remained leaning against it, she would have been inside it.

There went her stomach. She untangled herself from Damian and dropped to the ground, retching. At least there wasn't much in her, not having eaten a lot for dinner.

Damian side-stepped, avoiding another portal right behind him. "It takes a while to get used to such a concentration of magic."

She almost confessed to touching the gate, to prove that she could handle the wave of magic from the shift. But that would be stupid. And she'd been pretty stupid already. Understatement.

If it hadn't been for Damian, she'd be dead.

Sid still couldn't summon a thank you, though. He'd caught her out here, and she was sure after saving her life, the Council would just as quickly end it.

Damian offered her a hand.

She looked at it, uncertain she wanted more of his help. He had protected her, and only moments ago she had been wrapped in his arms, which oddly made her more hesitant to touch him now.

Silly. She sighed and took the offered hand. A shock zapped her skin on contact.

Damian jerked, obviously feeling it too, but instead of letting her go, he pulled her up. "Must be residual magic from the shift." He studied their joined hands, brows drawn together.

"You've never experienced it before?" Now she didn't want to let go. Crazy emotions--touching that gate must have scrambled her insides.

"This is the first time I've been around anyone during a shift." Damian met her eyes. It felt as if he examined her, tried to peel away her layers just with his gaze. "You shouldn't have been out here."

Sid nodded. "I'm sorry. It won't happen again. I swear."

"If you insist on walking around the courtyard at night, make sure to do it well before the shift. It's dangerous if you don't know where the gates move to."

Did he just give her permission? Even if he didn't, it sure sounded like he wouldn't tell the Council. "You could always teach me the patterns."

There went that eyebrow of his again.

"Just in case. Who knows, maybe one day I'll have to save another dedicant." Weak excuse. "Am I in trouble?"

"I think you've learned your lesson on this one."

If he only knew. Not only had she learned to avoid the shift to keep her body intact, but touching gates in this courtyard should be avoided. The magic here was stronger than from her gate back home. She should have known better. But ever since she got here, she hadn't been careful enough.

The anxiety still throbbed through her and she didn't think it would fade any time soon. Not until she opened the portal.

"Definitely," she said. "Definitely learned my lesson."

"Then you better head to bed before your roommates notice you missing."

"Of course." Sid wobbled across the courtyard on legs of jelly. Good thing the size of the area had shrunk with this last shift. It was going to be hard enough trudging up the stairs.

She looked back, thinking Damian would be right behind her, but instead of on her heels, he remained in the spot he had dragged her. He stared at the hill, a lost look in his eyes.

At first, she thought of calling out to him, but something on his face made her think twice. And she didn't want to stir the pot anymore than she had already tonight.

Sid turned away, leaving Damian to his reflection, and wove her way back to her bed.

After the shock Damian received from Obsidian, a need so powerful, that he had to carefully choose his words, swept through him. It felt like when he had touched the gate for the first time.

He looked wistfully at the hill once she departed, just glimpsing a sliver of the gate through the crevice.

Yes. Come to me. The words whispered in his head, so soft that they could be mistaken for the wind, but there was no breeze right now. The night was still.

He looked at his fingers, moving them about, trying to shake off the numbness that still covered the tips. The need to go to the gate was strong, even stronger than when he was a child. An ache settled in his chest, one that made him feel a sense of loss--an ache that didn't feel like his own.

Beyond a doubt, Damian knew Obsidian had touched that portal.

He should run to the Council, tell them, let them know she had broken the first precept. Yes, that's what he should do as a Guardian. Make sure she was tossed out of the House of Portals before she caused any real damage.

But like in the council room, he remained rooted, mute.

Perhaps his will wasn't as strong as he thought it was, and the gate itself directed his actions, his mistake from over a decade ago still haunting him, still making an impression on him. The sensation from touching it had taken weeks to wear off, but maybe it never did, maybe it remained buried, hidden, and now that Obsidian was here, it reared its intentions and bent his decisions to its desires.

That was a hefty theory. The magic couldn't be that strong, could it?

He told himself he had no proof. No reason to accuse Obsidian of doing something that he didn't actually witness himself, no matter how sure he was that she'd done it. Again, he felt he was trying to justify something he ought not.

Gradually, he realized exactly what he had told her before she headed back to her room. He'd told her she could come into the courtyard at night. Not the best idea--he was doing a rotten job as a mentor. But why shouldn't she be able to do something that he'd done practically all his life?

Because she had touched the gate.

Well, so had he.

Damian's mind battled, wanting to hold the precepts up on one end, but not able to come to terms for punishing her for a mistake that he himself made on the other. He sighed. The former side won, for now. Not like the Council would find out since there were no witnesses.

He forced his feet to move, tore his gaze away from the hill, and made his way back inside. Dawn would come soon, and the halls and courtyard would be full of Guardians and dedicants hustling to get to their studies or jobs. Best he not be standing here when that happened.

Instead of going to his room, though, he went to the dining hall. He found an apple and sat down in the currently deserted room to think. He needed to do something, even if it wasn't reporting Obsidian to the Council. And he couldn't accuse her to her face either.

But how could he temper her desire, teach her that the precepts were in place for a reason? The ache that still throbbed in his chest reminded him all too clearly why the first one should be followed.

When he had touched the gate as a child, he knew nothing about it. True, he still didn't know what the world on the other side was like, as all the books relating to the worlds had been destroyed a long time ago--a way to protect everyone in Nect. But he now knew the word at the top.

Turmoil.

His stomach dropped just thinking of the word. There was nothing good on the other side of that gate, no matter how much it begged to be opened. Not like he could even if he wanted to, anyhow.

Knowing what was etched on top of the gate, that solidified his belief even more that the precepts were in place to protect everyone, common person and Guardian alike. Not all the portals had such dismal labels, but there was no reason to risk it just because something sounded nice.

Perhaps if she learned the script, then she'd think twice, reconsider stepping out of line again. Of course, that meant he'd be giving her exactly what she wanted. He wasn't sure how wise it was to do so because she must have a reason to have asked for it, and not just due to boredom with memorization.

Smells drifted from the adjacent kitchen--dedicants were hard at work preparing breakfast. And soon, people began filtering into the dining hall. Most didn't spare Damian a second glance, him sitting there with a mostly brown apple in his hand and watching everyone pass.

Eventually, Obsidian entered, grabbed a full plate of food, and joined him. "You know, you might want to throw that out." She wrinkled her nose. "How long have you been sitting here?"

"Long enough." No amount of time was long enough to figure out this problem. Though if he continued to bounce back and forth instead of actually making a decision, his inaction would have its own repercussions.

"Well, you may want to grab something else to eat. I'm starving after last night."

At least she didn't openly mention experiencing the shift in the courtyard where any number of ears could hear. She wouldn't have even stepped into the House of Portals, though, if she didn't have a decent head on her shoulders.

Damian placed the sad apple on the corner of her tray. "I'm not all that hungry." Food couldn't take away that ache.

"Your stomach." She shoveled the food in like she hadn't eaten for days. In actuality, he guessed she hadn't had much the last couple days. It took magic and near death to stimulate her appetite it seemed.

He leaned toward her. It wasn't against the rules to say what he was about to say, but he still didn't like the idea of others knowing he was going to veer off the beaten path. "Today, you can start learning the script."

Obsidian stopped chewing and stared at him, then a grin split across her face. She quickly covered her mouth so her food wouldn't tumble out.

At least one of them was happy with his decision.

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Chapter 8